Elusive goal. hmmm.. When I think about this phrase, sooo many different things come to mind about my journey towards becoming a teacher. The goal that stands out to me the most is the one thing that I believe was the hardest for me to achieve/overcome/fight for.. STUDENT TEACHING!!! Putting your work life, social life, love life on hold to focus on creating zillions of lessons, worksheets, rubrics, videos, icebreakers, etc… Wow! I remember my first graduate classes at QC having to create one lesson to present to my peers. I was soo nervous! I remember thinking, ” I sound ridiculous! Why the hell am I rambling? Is anyone listening? Why do they all have the ‘blank stare’?? All these different things would make me so nervous. Who was I kidding? One little lesson in grad class is no comparison to student teaching or co-teaching. It’s one thing observe & assist. But, it’s a whole other thing to command a classroom for 42 minutes. In the beginning, it was really hard for me to believe in my abilities as a teacher. As a career changer, I knew I had the desire and interest, but I wasn’t positive that I had the skills. However, my cooperating teacher was amazing. A-mazing! She made me push myself to believe in my abilities and to use my creativity in my lessons and pedagogy. I knew I had become a better teacher when I looked up one day in my Independent Life Skills class and had 15 boys sewing a button on a tiny piece of muslin. I was shocked! This class was made up of about 15 boys and 4 girls. Needless to say, they weren’t too geeked about the ‘Sewing Lesson’.. 🙂 As I am writing this post, I look over at my big book of lessons that I created with hard work and determination. It makes me soo proud. Student teaching by far has been the hardest goal to achieve. But I did it! And it was an experience that will stay with me forever. Thanks Ms. Amaris!